Journal Entry # 2: Sitting in the Discomfort
5/28/20261 min read
I'm choosing to sit in the DISCOMFORT.
I'm choosing to sit in this temporary discomfort, so that I can enjoy long-term benefits. I don't like this place, but it's necessary. Not too many know that I am here, but you see me, Lord. You are El Roi (the God who sees me). You see me living in the uncertainty of what tomorrow holds.
I just read an article that says that "we don't owe anyone our stagnation"...Ooh...yes and I don't. Others may love it here...this level of being...this level of thinking...this level of living, but me, I don't.
Truth is, I am outgrowing my environment, outgrowing my old ways, old relationships, and I gotta look fear of the unknown right smack in the face, because staying here is devastating. Staying here is HARDER than stepping out on FAITH.
So, I gotta GO.
I feel it so strongly deep down inside. I gotta GO.
Because I will GROW as I go. So, I surrender what is and what will be. For where you are taking me, I have to say goodbye to the old me.
She served me for a time, but...the new...the next...needs the new me that you are molding and shaping right now.
Oh, it hurts. Oh, I wish I didn't have to sit in this any much longer. But I don't wanna move away from the process too fast and return to what was nor forfeit what is and what will be. DISCOMFORT. Right now, I have to be comfortable being uncomfortable.